Thursday, January 22, 2004 :::
 

Do you want to know what I love? Ear wax.. no honestly. It's facinating... we have holes in our heads that generate wax. It's absolutly disgusting, but as well amazing. Sorry.. I was just cleaning my ears out.

Onto more inportant news. i know I havn't written anything in months.. not that anyone's reading it. but I guess I want to talk now. Just for a momment. The world is either entirely good, or entirely bad. You may argue that there's good things in life and some not so good things, but no, in the end you are either pesimistic or optomistic. I find myself caught between the two. I believe the world is a horrible place, for all the times it's let me down, for all the hatred i've felt. People that are no longer in my life, people that I fear loosing; the ultimate statment that I am still alone fighting by myself to become 'normal' and 'happy'. but I know to myself that I will find what I'm looking for, and if I don't, i'll ultimatly just kill myself and take as many souls as I can with me (prefrably those who wish to join me, not the happy people). I don't know why i'm writing this. I'm not miserible, i'm just not happy... and I want to be unnaturally happy all the time. I wish I was as dimwhitted and spontanious, and carefree as some people think I am. or maybe people get it.

IN OTHER BREAKING NEWS... my friend Shuo tried to by me a vibrator last night.. it was 84 dollars, for apparently, the worlds best in vibrating adult toys. Can't say I wasn't intrested, but how do you descretly hide an 84 dollar amusment ride entitled "The Bunny"?

Quote of the day:
Those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind

::: posted by Becky at 12:18 PM
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